Most pressing on my mind is the number, though. 50. Fifty. I'm trying to approach it with grace, wisdom, dignity and blah blah blah, when what I really want is to run screaming back to my thirties. I started this blog to put some of these ideas out there, but I'm feeling shy about promoting it. Because then I'll have to go on social media and proclaim the fact of it! I'm turning 50! Why is that so scary? Anyone who has met me is going to know about how old I am. Certainly my school friends would know, friends from my 20's and 30's are going to be able to do the math, and newer friends are going to know I'm no spring chicken when they hear that my kids are in their twenties. Or look at my face. So why so shy about it? Is it that there is some unspoken rule that we are not supposed to talk about it? That we are, indeed, supposed to be ashamed of our age? If that's the case, my conditioning has worked...I'm still freaked about it.
I'm sure if I'm feeling this, others are too, so why not share it? That's going to be my resolution for this week: put it out there. And keep going, keep pushing, keep questioning, keep feeling my way through. Keep aiming to turn 50 in good health and with a positive attitude. Because unless tragedy strikes, I'm currently under ten months away from the big day.
Meanwhile, the 1 Year of Stitches is going really well. I'm enjoying pulling out the same project every day for just a few minutes, choosing a new colour, choosing a new stitch, and then documenting. It's not the neatest, but I already feel a little more confident with it. And the Facebook community is lovely! Here's where I'm at so far: