Now generally, I have to say I feel about 35 - in my head. It's the perfect age. And I can carry on blissfully feeling 35 until the roots start to grow in, or I see the crazy wrinkly bits under my chin, or my feet just hurt on the cold floor. But it was totally impossible to deny my (wah) middle age status as I vacationed with my daughter over the holidays. All of a sudden, I realized that I was totally invisible walking next to the loveliness of her early 20's self. How to deal??
Fight or Flight...
I guess I've been fighting the aging...colouring my hair, being very concious of not dressing "old", and being secretly proud when people say they can't believe I have a child in her twenties. But how far to take it?
I don't think I can go down the road of cosmetic surgery. I'm not judging, it's just not for me. I'm not loving the changes happening in my mirror, but I'm too afraid of making permanent changes through surgery that I would be uncomfortable with or might regret. Okay then: embrace the aging face.
I do think I could be taking better care of myself - excercising more and eating less, the elusive magic formula. Weekly yoga could be daily yoga, treats could be fruit (within reason), cardio could be a thing. That's not about age, that's just good sense.
All these things were rattling around in my brain this past week, and then I saw a post for 1 year of stitches. It's an online group committing to a year-long emboidery project where you do at least one stitch per day and document your progress. I've been wanting to do more embroidery, so I jumped on board.
And then as I was doing yoga this morning, I thouht - hey! I'm doing a year of stitches, why not a year of yoga? I already do 2 intense classes per week, and try to fit in another session or two with my iPad app. Can I commit to doing at least 15 minutes of yoga every day too? Why not?
How about diet? Four days ago, I committed to not snacking after dinner for one whole week. It's not easy to bypass the snacks in the evening, but I can do anything for a week. So far so good, if you don't count New Year's Eve, when dinner was some appetizers at 10pm. But I'm pretty sure NYE doesn't count.
SO - to keep track, here is my new blog, Project 50. I'm starting with 1 Year of Stitches and daily yoga, and I've set a weekly calendar alert to remind me to update this blog. This feels like a good start: some creativity and some fitness and a schedule. I'll see how the food thing goes, maybe that goes on the list too but I don't want to go overboard.
Here are my first few stitches: